nothing much.......

its gonna sound depressing yet again maybe! but that's pretty much my state of mind at the moment. i miss my friends terribly. i can now realize what kind of a bond we actually used to share. they say it becomes difficult to maintain any relationship from a long distance. and i have had an experience of that. but now i am beginning to realize that distances sometimes bridge gaps as well. you sometimes takes people for granted or maybe just don't realize what they mean to you when they're closer to you. but you realize the moment they leave.anyways no use cribbing.
i am feeling very restless too.wish my joining weren't this late.
strange things happening around everywhere. feel bad for some of my friends.

i walk alone.........

my best friends are not in the city.. some have gone to join their jobs.. and one has gone for an outing...i am left all alone..having this strange strange feeling...wonder what i ll do when i have to leave kolkata.. in these 2 days or so i realize what they mean to me and how they're attached to me and my life.. the people who have gone to join tcs cant come back so early.. but ritu..come back baby..i miss u sooo much..

wanna be loved :)

its the effect of two songs "kahin to hogi woh" from jaane tu ya jaane na and "yeh haseen wadiyan" from roja that i want to be loved... badddly :) the atmosphere that was created when these two songs were sung.....it was haunting..it was sweet.. it made one like being in love..what more can a song do?! rahman's so great... through songs he can actually make u crave for being in love. i wish i were lucky enough! am still drooling over the concert and trying to relive those precious moments by just listening t rahman's songs on my pc or even in my car!

trio!maybe one more!

met up with nitin and antariksh. was feeling sleepy in the afternoon but still went to anty's place with nitin. had great time lazying in his house. pulling his leg,listening to his film script and addaing! then mr.trix wanted to have icecream and so we went to mamamia! and had a greattttt time. cant say we did this we did that. just realised an hour later.. whenever i spend time with these ppl...its always so very special. and each one of us feels that way. we could only include brup in the group..no one else. we just love being with each other.. our own dostana!! well just for clarification no one's a gay and i wont fall in love with any bobby deol for sure!! :P
cheers to the trio!

Rahmania!

last evening went to watch A.R.Rahman LIVE in concert at yuva bharati krirangan. we were a group of seven..me,dada,c di, diya di,anti,abhirup and nabanita. i cant really describe how and what i felt. the man weaves MAGIC. i dont wanna say too much u know...bcos i wanna be selfish and not share what i saw,what i experienced with anyone!!! just.. it was a magical evening.. and the man and his entire team just created music which i am going to carry in myself forever and maybe even in my next life.all i can say.. I LOVE U RAHMAN.

it is the end...my friend!!!!

i don't know what to write. have a lot of things going on in my mind..but i don't know if i want to let them out.. that too publicly. i was never really too good at taking criticisms but i did somehow. i mean.. i used to be very hurt when someone criticized me for something which i had though would be good.. that is with positive thought..but then i also realized my mistake..if the person was able to convince me and tried to overcome it. but.. what would you do if you constantly try and do good for people..even sacrificing your own thoughts and desires..and all you get is some bad name! moral of the story: NEVER do anything which your conscience doesn't support or your mind doesn't allow you to.you can never make others happy if you aren't happy. and i'll try and follow that from now on.enough i have had of certain things and certain people.no more.

health hazards continue--am i going to die?!

this phase of not being well is being a bit too lengthy. and i am beginning to lose my patience. and at least with me its like if i am not feeling well inside..i cant feel well outside.again the stomach pain woke me up at 4am after finally sleeping later than 12 am last night.i just seemed to have lost my sleep! i dunno over what! last day has been hectic. in fact a wee bit of activity tires me completely these days. should i start to feel that i am indeed growing old?! i don't feel well most of the times these days. one health problem or the other. will i be ever okay? or am i dying?! i don't know!i have often had a feeling that i'm not going to live long. is that coming true?! maybe. maybe not! but i don't like to be so sick always! i hate it. this is turning out to be an extremely depressing write up,but what to do?!anyways. have to go out yet again.

health is wealth! how i know that!

long time since my last post. had typed out a few in between but they are still resting in peace in my cell phone! had a great tour post puja. baba was delighted to have us all and we had such a wonderful time.
Ma Kamakhya instantly granted my wish of having the car! so we got it as soon as we came back! we have come a lonnnggg way and so having a car means a lot to us :)
but as the title of my post goes.. health has suffered a BIIIG trough as it got really really bad ..so bad that i had to spend a night at the hospital !! how i hated that. i was always afraid of the needle but now i'm not..i guess!! when they inserted the rice tube through my nose--god!!anyway those days have passed somehow but the health this time has gone pretty bad as i'm continuing to have one problem or the other...
anyways. life's pretty busy at the moment with the tuitions and my health problems!! sometime back my friends from TCS got their joining calls! i'll miss Hindol! had it not been for him..my life would have been different and worse in many ways. i'll really miss him. haven't had too many friends from college.. so the rest going...i don't even care!
su and debarati came to my house that day!loved the adda ! i'd really be looking forward to being with su in the near future! got to know a lot of things from them..wish i had a little more vision and patience during the four years of college.i shouldn't have made most of the mistake that i did!yes BIG MISTAKES.
met an old best friend and was really appalled at what happened to her. i really pray to God to mend her life and make it happy for her.
more.later.