whats going on?!

i really really dunno whats going on..i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo confused..yet again..yes!!!! oh lord this is so restless a phase!!! but thank u for giving me some people who love me and care for me and make me happy :) they mean a lot to me. and these times will pass by.. just need to do one thing right...THINK LESS!! if that were possible..

nothing much.......

its gonna sound depressing yet again maybe! but that's pretty much my state of mind at the moment. i miss my friends terribly. i can now realize what kind of a bond we actually used to share. they say it becomes difficult to maintain any relationship from a long distance. and i have had an experience of that. but now i am beginning to realize that distances sometimes bridge gaps as well. you sometimes takes people for granted or maybe just don't realize what they mean to you when they're closer to you. but you realize the moment they leave.anyways no use cribbing.
i am feeling very restless too.wish my joining weren't this late.
strange things happening around everywhere. feel bad for some of my friends.

i walk alone.........

my best friends are not in the city.. some have gone to join their jobs.. and one has gone for an outing...i am left all alone..having this strange strange feeling...wonder what i ll do when i have to leave kolkata.. in these 2 days or so i realize what they mean to me and how they're attached to me and my life.. the people who have gone to join tcs cant come back so early.. but ritu..come back baby..i miss u sooo much..

wanna be loved :)

its the effect of two songs "kahin to hogi woh" from jaane tu ya jaane na and "yeh haseen wadiyan" from roja that i want to be loved... badddly :) the atmosphere that was created when these two songs were sung.....it was haunting..it was sweet.. it made one like being in love..what more can a song do?! rahman's so great... through songs he can actually make u crave for being in love. i wish i were lucky enough! am still drooling over the concert and trying to relive those precious moments by just listening t rahman's songs on my pc or even in my car!

trio!maybe one more!

met up with nitin and antariksh. was feeling sleepy in the afternoon but still went to anty's place with nitin. had great time lazying in his house. pulling his leg,listening to his film script and addaing! then mr.trix wanted to have icecream and so we went to mamamia! and had a greattttt time. cant say we did this we did that. just realised an hour later.. whenever i spend time with these ppl...its always so very special. and each one of us feels that way. we could only include brup in the group..no one else. we just love being with each other.. our own dostana!! well just for clarification no one's a gay and i wont fall in love with any bobby deol for sure!! :P
cheers to the trio!

Rahmania!

last evening went to watch A.R.Rahman LIVE in concert at yuva bharati krirangan. we were a group of seven..me,dada,c di, diya di,anti,abhirup and nabanita. i cant really describe how and what i felt. the man weaves MAGIC. i dont wanna say too much u know...bcos i wanna be selfish and not share what i saw,what i experienced with anyone!!! just.. it was a magical evening.. and the man and his entire team just created music which i am going to carry in myself forever and maybe even in my next life.all i can say.. I LOVE U RAHMAN.

it is the end...my friend!!!!

i don't know what to write. have a lot of things going on in my mind..but i don't know if i want to let them out.. that too publicly. i was never really too good at taking criticisms but i did somehow. i mean.. i used to be very hurt when someone criticized me for something which i had though would be good.. that is with positive thought..but then i also realized my mistake..if the person was able to convince me and tried to overcome it. but.. what would you do if you constantly try and do good for people..even sacrificing your own thoughts and desires..and all you get is some bad name! moral of the story: NEVER do anything which your conscience doesn't support or your mind doesn't allow you to.you can never make others happy if you aren't happy. and i'll try and follow that from now on.enough i have had of certain things and certain people.no more.

health hazards continue--am i going to die?!

this phase of not being well is being a bit too lengthy. and i am beginning to lose my patience. and at least with me its like if i am not feeling well inside..i cant feel well outside.again the stomach pain woke me up at 4am after finally sleeping later than 12 am last night.i just seemed to have lost my sleep! i dunno over what! last day has been hectic. in fact a wee bit of activity tires me completely these days. should i start to feel that i am indeed growing old?! i don't feel well most of the times these days. one health problem or the other. will i be ever okay? or am i dying?! i don't know!i have often had a feeling that i'm not going to live long. is that coming true?! maybe. maybe not! but i don't like to be so sick always! i hate it. this is turning out to be an extremely depressing write up,but what to do?!anyways. have to go out yet again.

health is wealth! how i know that!

long time since my last post. had typed out a few in between but they are still resting in peace in my cell phone! had a great tour post puja. baba was delighted to have us all and we had such a wonderful time.
Ma Kamakhya instantly granted my wish of having the car! so we got it as soon as we came back! we have come a lonnnggg way and so having a car means a lot to us :)
but as the title of my post goes.. health has suffered a BIIIG trough as it got really really bad ..so bad that i had to spend a night at the hospital !! how i hated that. i was always afraid of the needle but now i'm not..i guess!! when they inserted the rice tube through my nose--god!!anyway those days have passed somehow but the health this time has gone pretty bad as i'm continuing to have one problem or the other...
anyways. life's pretty busy at the moment with the tuitions and my health problems!! sometime back my friends from TCS got their joining calls! i'll miss Hindol! had it not been for him..my life would have been different and worse in many ways. i'll really miss him. haven't had too many friends from college.. so the rest going...i don't even care!
su and debarati came to my house that day!loved the adda ! i'd really be looking forward to being with su in the near future! got to know a lot of things from them..wish i had a little more vision and patience during the four years of college.i shouldn't have made most of the mistake that i did!yes BIG MISTAKES.
met an old best friend and was really appalled at what happened to her. i really pray to God to mend her life and make it happy for her.
more.later.

saptami

maha saptami. woke up in the morning and suddenly remembered that i was very interested in zodiac signs and so had to watch whats your raashee that very day!!
dada got the tickets for me and ma at south city fame,the 2pm show. an above average movie[the review later on maybe in a new post], but tooooooooo long!!
when i came out i had to meet my dearest buddies nitin, antariksh and adg.
started for golpark at 7. the autos at 8B were taking some round about route and chargging 25rs for that! i took a bus and had to stop 4 times..yes..before i could cross jadavpore thana!!and each of the 4 breaks were not less than 15 mins :-(
then met them in front of grub club.they picked me up at adg's dad's new Chevrolet aveo driven by gopal da :D we had to go to maddox square on adg's demand![amar ekdome e ichhe chhilo na] entered maddox square and the 1st thing we see is a fat anbd short girl dressed in a mini black dress.adg just made a comment about her and she turned out to be monali thakur!! :P
we had phuchkas[paid by adg] and then adg's quest for an egg roll began! not having found one he ordered for a chicken cutlet from arambagh's. then anty had pan flavored ice cream [i forgot the name of the brand] it was yummy!
then after leaving maddox we went to he restaurant at the 1st floor at purna das road.
after having a gourmet dinner myself nk and anty went to the golpark ccd. earlier we had plans of going to adg'd complex for some adda but after finishing dinner it was too late to go there. after ccd it was home sweet home.. a good day with some good quality friends :)

shashthi

24th September 2009, Thursday,maha shashthi. in the evening got gifts from C di..god bless her.. ma was so happy to have received the beautiful Saree..
went out at 6.10pm.met sayantani but lord! it took us 2 hours to reach park street and after having taken all kinda vehicles from rickshaw[ south city to rabindra sarobar metro station],taxi,metro,auto and what not!! we were so damn late.good in one way though. that seal got a taste of his own medicine!!felt bad for ritu though.. just gobbled up all the food in no time ..oh..the place..peter cat!! and the dish--my favorite chicken steaks sizzler. loved it and loved the day.

panchami

started off in a busy note..but turned out to be a gr8888 day and night as well!! had a bike ride and a few searches finally helped me get to the destination..thanks to sayak.. then picking up my jeans from pantaloons and back home. all of these in the sun!! boy was it hot!! then tuitions in the aftn. lord! today's kids even they have to study for panchami!! made me quite mad but i couldn't say anything because i soon would have to apply for some leaves!! then went out with mom and mashi,mesho to hiland park.some shopping,then back home with them. poor bro had a bad backache.. then the long awaited SPE night!! o my god! it was SUPERRR fun! hippocket and great company.. arnab,chit,abhirup,dada,bhuto da,banta da ..a great musical night and then picked up dinner from azad hind. fun it was..super fun :)

happy pujas everyone

wishing everyone a very happy puja season :)

a LONG gap.... literally :)

yes i am back but can't really say with a bang.too many things ..mostly bad and depressing.. but maybe a ray of light... just a dot at the moment though...now making plans for a peaceful adda with my best buddy..ritu. she's in Bangalore right now and we're talking like we've never spoken to each other before. so much similarity in the things which have been happening to us all this while..sharmi just left yesterday..they say people who arrive with rains leave u bad cough and cold.. true they say sometimes ;) anyways trying to move ob with life.. taking in what it has to offer ..at the moment more bad than good things :) but i don't mind.

one for today

things have changed again eh? oh yes! and how i love them... had a rather long day..driving classes early in the morning... then hunting for the duplicate sim and failing... damn the thief who stole my cell phone..can u please gimme back my sim at least!! :( then tuition... feeling a bit stressed but i like it..its better than sitting n doin nuthin!

happy bday baba!

23rd jan-- Netaji Subhash's birth anniversary and so's my dad's!! does it say anything..well NOPE!! :P since i forgot and also did not get any time to write yesterday i'll do that now! last day started off on a particularly bad note..but thanks to some people in my life...they made it a super one and one of the most memorable days ever!! i know i love them now...and how!!! today;s gonna be hectic..tuition.. then shopping..then guests..phew.. just a beginning of the tremendous hectic week coming up!!

one for today....

long gap!! but I've been busy..or have i ?? some developments..some accelerated hormone running! finally I've realized a blog is not just for writing weird poems ;)!! what has changed in these months?? somethingS for sure!! and i am happy!! or am i?? :P well.. i continue to remain the same old boring person..and i bet a few of my buddies will agree for sure :P so much so for the backlog..
as for today.. had a nice witty chat with a witty person! so that makes me happy..