it is the end...my friend!!!!

i don't know what to write. have a lot of things going on in my mind..but i don't know if i want to let them out.. that too publicly. i was never really too good at taking criticisms but i did somehow. i mean.. i used to be very hurt when someone criticized me for something which i had though would be good.. that is with positive thought..but then i also realized my mistake..if the person was able to convince me and tried to overcome it. but.. what would you do if you constantly try and do good for people..even sacrificing your own thoughts and desires..and all you get is some bad name! moral of the story: NEVER do anything which your conscience doesn't support or your mind doesn't allow you to.you can never make others happy if you aren't happy. and i'll try and follow that from now on.enough i have had of certain things and certain people.no more.

health hazards continue--am i going to die?!

this phase of not being well is being a bit too lengthy. and i am beginning to lose my patience. and at least with me its like if i am not feeling well inside..i cant feel well outside.again the stomach pain woke me up at 4am after finally sleeping later than 12 am last night.i just seemed to have lost my sleep! i dunno over what! last day has been hectic. in fact a wee bit of activity tires me completely these days. should i start to feel that i am indeed growing old?! i don't feel well most of the times these days. one health problem or the other. will i be ever okay? or am i dying?! i don't know!i have often had a feeling that i'm not going to live long. is that coming true?! maybe. maybe not! but i don't like to be so sick always! i hate it. this is turning out to be an extremely depressing write up,but what to do?!anyways. have to go out yet again.

health is wealth! how i know that!

long time since my last post. had typed out a few in between but they are still resting in peace in my cell phone! had a great tour post puja. baba was delighted to have us all and we had such a wonderful time.
Ma Kamakhya instantly granted my wish of having the car! so we got it as soon as we came back! we have come a lonnnggg way and so having a car means a lot to us :)
but as the title of my post goes.. health has suffered a BIIIG trough as it got really really bad ..so bad that i had to spend a night at the hospital !! how i hated that. i was always afraid of the needle but now i'm not..i guess!! when they inserted the rice tube through my nose--god!!anyway those days have passed somehow but the health this time has gone pretty bad as i'm continuing to have one problem or the other...
anyways. life's pretty busy at the moment with the tuitions and my health problems!! sometime back my friends from TCS got their joining calls! i'll miss Hindol! had it not been for him..my life would have been different and worse in many ways. i'll really miss him. haven't had too many friends from college.. so the rest going...i don't even care!
su and debarati came to my house that day!loved the adda ! i'd really be looking forward to being with su in the near future! got to know a lot of things from them..wish i had a little more vision and patience during the four years of college.i shouldn't have made most of the mistake that i did!yes BIG MISTAKES.
met an old best friend and was really appalled at what happened to her. i really pray to God to mend her life and make it happy for her.
more.later.

saptami

maha saptami. woke up in the morning and suddenly remembered that i was very interested in zodiac signs and so had to watch whats your raashee that very day!!
dada got the tickets for me and ma at south city fame,the 2pm show. an above average movie[the review later on maybe in a new post], but tooooooooo long!!
when i came out i had to meet my dearest buddies nitin, antariksh and adg.
started for golpark at 7. the autos at 8B were taking some round about route and chargging 25rs for that! i took a bus and had to stop 4 times..yes..before i could cross jadavpore thana!!and each of the 4 breaks were not less than 15 mins :-(
then met them in front of grub club.they picked me up at adg's dad's new Chevrolet aveo driven by gopal da :D we had to go to maddox square on adg's demand![amar ekdome e ichhe chhilo na] entered maddox square and the 1st thing we see is a fat anbd short girl dressed in a mini black dress.adg just made a comment about her and she turned out to be monali thakur!! :P
we had phuchkas[paid by adg] and then adg's quest for an egg roll began! not having found one he ordered for a chicken cutlet from arambagh's. then anty had pan flavored ice cream [i forgot the name of the brand] it was yummy!
then after leaving maddox we went to he restaurant at the 1st floor at purna das road.
after having a gourmet dinner myself nk and anty went to the golpark ccd. earlier we had plans of going to adg'd complex for some adda but after finishing dinner it was too late to go there. after ccd it was home sweet home.. a good day with some good quality friends :)

shashthi

24th September 2009, Thursday,maha shashthi. in the evening got gifts from C di..god bless her.. ma was so happy to have received the beautiful Saree..
went out at 6.10pm.met sayantani but lord! it took us 2 hours to reach park street and after having taken all kinda vehicles from rickshaw[ south city to rabindra sarobar metro station],taxi,metro,auto and what not!! we were so damn late.good in one way though. that seal got a taste of his own medicine!!felt bad for ritu though.. just gobbled up all the food in no time ..oh..the place..peter cat!! and the dish--my favorite chicken steaks sizzler. loved it and loved the day.

panchami

started off in a busy note..but turned out to be a gr8888 day and night as well!! had a bike ride and a few searches finally helped me get to the destination..thanks to sayak.. then picking up my jeans from pantaloons and back home. all of these in the sun!! boy was it hot!! then tuitions in the aftn. lord! today's kids even they have to study for panchami!! made me quite mad but i couldn't say anything because i soon would have to apply for some leaves!! then went out with mom and mashi,mesho to hiland park.some shopping,then back home with them. poor bro had a bad backache.. then the long awaited SPE night!! o my god! it was SUPERRR fun! hippocket and great company.. arnab,chit,abhirup,dada,bhuto da,banta da ..a great musical night and then picked up dinner from azad hind. fun it was..super fun :)

happy pujas everyone

wishing everyone a very happy puja season :)